Enjoy life and all the things you have at the moment because cant have everything all at once.
To really think about it , this statement does have some justice to it. But it doesnt really work out practically. Im 21 years old and yet i feel like i just started going thru adolscence age. Its weird.. while i was a teen i never acted like one i suppose. I was the reserve , do my own work , focus and just work towards my goal kind of person. Never really had time for silly fights , arguements , quarelling which made no sense and most of all crying. Ironically when im about to step into the adult age ; i feel like i have just started going thru teenage age. All the above i mentioned has happened just within a short span of 3 months. Well not to mention attractions , infactuation and all. They all come as a package afterall. Somehow , i am just hoping to start my university asap.. It kind of keeps me focus and doesnt allow my mind to wander. When my mind wanders it can really do damages i never ever thought of.

Talking about emotions , some people are capable of hiding it well and others cant. I guess i am in the in between catogory. I somehow have selective expression hahahs! I choose what i wanna express and what i do not want to. Maybe it works depending on the people who surround me. I kind of feel that families and realtions are just way to complicated. I feel like i dont wish to handle them. I feel much better with my friends and people who are able to accept and let go . Families , they are a big bunch of mess really. I respect them yes. But i just find it all too much. The fake smilies, talking behind the back , claiming that they are always right and more of all arrogance and status. Jeez , all these serves u nothing. But somehow relations and families dont get it. THEY WILL NEVER GET IT. Therefore ,nowdays i keep to myself. I do my own stuff and spend time all by myself with what i like doing.. thou it can get a little boring i rather tolerate my own boredom then to tolerate all those stupid and idiotic family issues which are seriously F useless. If only everyone can stay within their limits , life would be a living heaven.