Deep

A heaven of happiness is often followed by a load of unhappiness. This is the reality of life. After a very long time , i enjoyed myself. For 3 plenty days no stress , no high emotions. Away from home , from disgusting people , away from people who hurt me , away from all bitches and bastards and fuckers. In other words , it was peace. To be in the middle of the ocean and surrounded by nothing but just the sun , sea , and me. A world where i was completely lost in peace and happiness. Just when i was about to take in 100% of it , of it ended. The 3 days passed really fast. When i was back , i knew it. In my mind it was running . God gave me happiness. However , to face the consequences of happiness he will give a load of sorrows and unhapiness. As expected it happened. In the 2 days that i have returned everything that my instincts told me happened. No doubt , i wake up in the morning and the first thought on my mind is ; smth bad is going to happen. I have been facing sorrows , problems and shit for the past 2 years. To add on to this problems i am homeless. That is what breaks me apart. Most of the time i spurr because the feeling of being homeless is toturing. Now , that i have finally got a place in university ; i am going for it. I am not 100% sure about it. But i am going to give it a try. Just to get away from all the pressures and stress and burden. To give my mind a totally different area of concentration. Whether i like the course or not is not longer an option put forward for me. The truth is i have to do it. Even if i plan not to , i found that i am always returning to this path. As much as it is tiring , i feel like giving up. I always pray to pass away fast. I am not strong enough to handle all this shit . I know that. But somehow , i am still going on in life without a purpose , without a reason to live , without a strong urge to go forward in life and make full use of it. TIRED , UPSET , HURT , GIVING UP.

Don't hurt me with words

I choose to go out with who I want. Just because you don't like the person doesn't mean I must not go out with that person. Relations are becoming more of a pain the joy. Envy and jealousy are on the rise ; while understanding and interpreting correctly are on the low end. The world is filled with so much of fuckers and sinners ! I don't have the fucking need to report every single shit i do. Its my life , I choose the people who I want in my life and people whom I will stray far away from. Don't lose your words unnecessarily as what goes around comes around. Karma wont leave anyone alone. A world without fuckers doesn't exist. But a life with minimum fuckers can exist. You ppl keep damaging the respect and image I have for u with the words u using. it's not my bad , I feel the pain ; ultimate you will lose my r/s. I m not born to be a slave neither a nodding toy for you.